[To find out why I am writing all these #Trust30 posts, click here]
The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
And the Prompt:
Emerson says: “Always do what you are afraid to do.” What is ‘too scary’ to write about? Try doing it now. – Mary Jaksch
Hmm. It’s one thing to answer a question like this in private, with your best friend or confidant, but when you start expecting me to write about something like that in this space, I begin to question my wisdom in accepting this writing challenge.
Some of the things that are “too scary” to write about are things best kept in confidence. At least they are things that I am not ready to share in a public forum. However, I will try to give you something, because you have been kind enough to come here to read this.
It took a while, but after staring at this screen until the white page permanently stained my retinae, I found my topic: love.
I’ll keep this short, because I’m 20 10 minutes from the midnight deadline. Below are the words to a song that I wrote for my wife. It’s one of those songs that for the most part wrote itself.
To give you a little background, last summer I finally completed another song that I started in 2005, titled Ten Year Winter. The melody and story came to me on a cold Sunday afternoon in 2005, when I was growing tired of a long, cold Boston winter that just would not end (much like a Portland spring). The song is about a couple who grew apart, and since Shayna and I were just coming up on our 10-year anniversary, I didn’t want her to get the wrong impression (know what I mean?) So I sat down to write a song for her one day, and this is what I came up with:
© 2005 by Will Hutchens
I’ve got a girl her name is Shay
She shows me that she loves me in a special way
I think she’s really pretty and I have to say
That I’m glad she married me
We first got together ten years ago
I think about it now, where does time go?
It only took one date for us to know
And I think she would agree, we’ve had a
Great life together and it’s gonna get that much better
From now until forever, together we will be (2x)
We’ve had our ups and downs like most folks do
We always find a way to make it through
We’re gonna stay together like a sock and a shoe
‘Cause we’re right where we belong, and it’s a =>chorus
Every day I wake up right by her side
She’s the one in whom I do confide
We’re gonna seek adventures the whole world wide
And I think that you can see, we’ve got a…=>Chorus (2x)
I know you can’t hear it, but just imagine a little three-chord ditty with a simple melody—kind of a poor-man’s Jack Johnson song. It’s not great music, but she seems to like it and that’s what matters. She laughs every time I sing the ‘sock and a shoe’ line, mostly because after ten years, she gets my sense of humor. I have a wonderful wife, and everyone should know this. I love her very much and would definitely marry her again…
Okay, enough sentimentality for one day. I promise not to do it again, so it is safe to come back.
Tomorrow, I’m going to publish an article about my trip to River Maiden Coffee in search of Clover coffee, and I’m sure there will also be another highly-interesting post from the #Trust30 challenge. See you then!